Tuesday, December 30
Telenav for Sandman
I just feel so icky.
The thought of food is scary now.
Which suck cause hello!?!?! I have to cook tomorrow and all I want to do is lay in bed and sleep:(
My mom forgot to wake me to take me to her office....and I got mad...no that I wanted to go.
Just that if I have an excuse I don't feel bad about leaving the house......
Tired,
Read Psy Cop 5 Camp Hell....It was good. No what I hoped, different but good.
The creepy food comments didn't help today but...meh
Jordan Castillo Price is a Goddess...(and someone needs to chain her to a desk)
I just talk to my mom and came into the kitchen to fix her a plate for when she comes home in a while.
Back to bed
Sandman no Go
Still no sleep:(
Problem is that If I take a sleeping pill now..well I'm gonna sleep all the way into 2009 with no stops, and that's just rude!
So cranky and tired, not to mention that I still have a problem eating.
Great way to be on the hols, called my doctor all ready.
So we'll see.
Trying to gear up to do some editing, I mean its been nearly a month and I want to try some new things. I want to write about a necromancer.....so yep.
Monday, December 29
Pre New Years
So tired and dizzy.
Had a biiiiiiggggg ight with my mother and...well, she just rubs me the wrong way somedays.
Somedays the world just sucks:(
Friday, December 26
Wednesday
For the ones that celebrate awesome time.
For the ones that don't. Well it was a stay at home type of day.
I can't stand the crazy-crazy noice and ate some very yummie dessert!
Have a fever and I'm very dizzy now.
Can't sleep but can't stay on the pc all day..
Peace
and yes two days later.....I'm really sick now!
Sunday, December 21
Wednesday, December 17
No Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
My eyes feel all gritty and I'm so crancky.
I am also very hungry, I ried not to eat to much, sence I stayed at home, but I really doe smakes me cranckier and I get so dizzy....
On the other hand I finished packing all the prezzies for christmas(not that there was much this year), but I'm thankfull my uncle is fine and that a second surgery was not need(not sure If we could have aforded that)
I'm gonna try to walk some now...see If I can manage to get some shut eye....If not its off to the hospital and they can drug into(I allready took the sleeping pills I was prescribe and some..)
I'm also getting the flue...in a country that Is now around 38 celsius everyday...
Tuesday, December 16
RB maybe not for me....
While Red Bull is very taisty and yummie.
Its aparently not for an imsomniac pranoid person like me!
On the other hand, I read 50 pages on my PoliSci book and have more than 6 pages in notes and highlights.
Bad thing is that now my brain is asleep and I'm still wired....
Need to start editing...now..
Ok, maybe tomorrow.
Monday, December 15
Just came from the Uni had to stay in line half the afternoon only for them to tell me that I need to come back in february(f****ers).
I started writing and putting up some ideas about extra scenes in Not there yet....to.. you know explain maybe what happens in the whole book...lol
And also some ideas for a new book....yep I lost my marbles!!
On an other news......I can't have my secong part of the requiere books for PoliScie class...there was some problem and they send them back...
And the new ones are only coming in feb...f***ers.
Dranked 3 red bulls!! I feel like Matt!!
Saturday, December 13
Funny
And after it I needed to go to the student counsel office to ask some things and have some sign in.
But the student id I needed to use..well it was not the same that the one I used for the exams..so I didn't have it in my bookbag(which is huge). So I panic..
I mean I knew it was there..just noit there or easily found:S
So in the hall where tons of people where waiting for their friends, letter to be called I pulled out all my books and notebooks and every piece of papper I had. Not to mention my two bottles of juice and candy that I need each day..I made a mess...
Not there, so after hours of search and my room looks like a bomb went in there, I founded in the first notebook I searched.
Ha, on me so now I need to hotfooted there on monday which is the last day and if they ask me any papper I don't bring I'm fucked.
So now my wrist hurts...so I'll write about the funny thing later on.
Cheers,
Delutions
I have a deep....deep love for those herbs it is bathed in, seson in ...I don't care. I love it, I will even eat the skin...
Its just soooooo good, and yummie and I just ate a quarter and my mouth waters at the mere thought of it.
Peruvian chicken...can conquer the world!
I bow down to your magesty!
Friday, December 12
36 celsius
:.pouts::
I really don't want to leave the house its tooooooo hot!
And I get cranky if I have to go up hill to find the stupid buss to get to central..
I just don't want to go...and I have to!
I need to sign up for some classes and I don't want to leave the house..........
Guurrrrrrrrrr
Yes, cranky!
Very cranky.....Ist way to f****g hot and there are freaking buggs everywhere and Arika Bell Bell is all randy up..and making so much noice in this cage that is bugging me.
I wanna keep reading smut but I'm to tired and my head hurts..more than usual.
And I hate the desktop keyboard.....the stupid laptop doesn't have the internet now...god only knows why and I'm cranky.
There is a problem with the hot water here..
Tired cranky and in pain...
Owie.
Thursday, December 11
Blurb
So I wrote a blurb...which I later felt was better than the whole freakin' thing..It was cute and short and not very comfusing...So of course being the dork I am I erase it from my computer..Anyway it was something like this...
Bla, bla, bla...................
what I ended up writing was...M-M Original story.
Its about four guy that have known each other most of their lives. And now they live in a house near campus, how they are each displeased about each others choices(careers, bf, friends). Just how they literally can't stand each other, yet they are tied by memories and love.
And just before the holidays when are at their most neurotic and cranky..someone realizes a rumor(flyer's, blogs, podcast, FB,..) about two of they.
And instead of braining themselves, they end up taking a stand.
'We are like this, and we like it'.
I left it off when are in the same room laughing and ready to face everybody...while their buddy's have their back.
Still neurotic, still twisted by life but hanging on.
Its called 'Not there Yet'
Deception
Today was the day of the mini diploma ceremony...there was also some realy nice presentations from other classes..Programing, Linux, Electronics, something, something, else...and It got canceled...because they need to fix the auditorium....
Bullcrap!!!
The auditory hasn't been open for students sence May...they promised that was done...LIERS!!
It pisses me off cause they gave us all this invitations, and they bugged us all the time to go..
And my mom and my sister, well they wanted to come..so they asked in their jobs half a day off, that sucks...No ceremony no play, no party(sure it was going to blow) but we had installed so much equipament this year(I helped do that)
And it sucks...............
Wednesday, December 10
Mini Diploma
I'm just leaving for the diploma ceremony at my Center where I have aparently managed to get my Diploma in Administration of Networks and something Unix 101:)
Still thing what to sign in next year..need to do it fast cause I have a free tuition until dec.20...
Maybe visual...and electronics?
Not sure...Silly hair is all wet still....
Tomorrow to the Uni to see if I can fix my mess...
Yeah today..
Thursday, December 4
Techno Igit!
no clue how to fix it.
And I don't remember all the names of the blogs....that really sucks
Joined gayauthors as jamiepblaze for some awesome reading by Dom Luka and some others authors.
Finaly did the spell check on 'Not there yet' so now I have to wait one more week before I can edit...rewrite...and add all the things I forgot ion the mad rush to reach my goal.
So thats all for now.
Tuesday, December 2
yeah yuck?
::Jump Jump::
I really fucked up some others classes, that I'm going re take next year.
Plus cram up, 2 language courses(that I should have donne in the full year) in two months.
I need to try to pass at least two courses in the summer (which is basicaslly cramming all the books in two months and hope I get a teacher I know who takes the 3 exams it takes to pass the course).
So really no holidays here but I wrote a novel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I need to learn who to edit:S
Sunday, November 30
100 reasons not to write.....I mock you:)
NaNo Character: Cameron Blake Windsor
He is a poli-sci mayor. Lives in a house of Campus with Jason, Tommy and Tyler.
Cam is very clean and anal retentive.
He likes authority, is a TA and works for the Dean of Ethics. He is a great cook, he taught Tyler how to cool
Cam likes rich and pretty things, is utterly in love with Tomas and has no clue what to do.
Often called a modern day GQ type.
Play by the rules…Is the ruling champion of debates matters. Is trusted by the administration portion of the college.
And is the poor boy who gets stuck in the campus lies and intrigues.
He grabs love and holds on to it.
Cameron Blake is very bashful and doesn't want to attract attention to himself, but look out if yo hurt his friends.
NaNo Character:Tyler Austin McCain II
Ty loves apple pie is a big mommas boy, sadly his mother passed away and his father married a Blondie half his age.
Is a singer and plays in a band.
He writes poetry and is a law student. He has classes with Cameron who is his best friend.
Tyler adores Cameron or Cammy as he call him to the point of insanity.
He never likes the man Cameron dates and has been in love with Jason since they meet.
Has a partner in crime, Martin aka dawn a raving sweet queen who outrages everyone with his wild side, who is a business mayor to booth.
He loves red meat and is waiting for someone to club him over the head and drag him home. Hint for Jason.
He is very outgoing and charming and is his penchant for outdoor loving that plots my book:)
Oh, and he also gets Jason at the end!
NaNo character:Jason Brandon Mallory
Spends a lot of time with Tommy, his best friend. Has a bit of a crush on him.
Loves to commute with nature.
Childhood nickname is Brandy.
Is in charge of the Garden and has a small pit bull.
Falls in love with Tyler McCain.
Is a member of the GLBT alliance and likes the gym.
Likes public parks and goes around in a bicycle.
Oddly enough not a vegan.Has frosty blue eyes.
NaNo Caracter: Thomas Scott RidgeRayne
‘Tommy’ is 24 years old.
Moisturizes, and spends more than half an tour to get his bed hair do.
Writer. Free lance, wild spirit large sense of righteousness.
Has a disturbing fancy for Chinese food.
Lovey lemon pie.
Bites his nails, and Sleeps in fetal position.
Uses aqua Velvet.
Drinks tea by the gallon. And has a love hate relationship with his mother.
Fancies himself to be a debonair lad. Its actually quite shy and judgemental….appears cool.
Always order martinis. And wears sneakers.
Kri
Tears of angels,
void of precious hurting.
I loved because I love,
I loved because there is life.
I feel because I love.
I cry because of pain.
Tears of angels,
a cry for grace,
a prairie for mercy.
I loved because I loved,
there is mercy if there is life.
I loved because I love,
I loved because there is life.
I feel because I love.
I cry because of pain.
tears of angels,
void of precious hurting.
Tears of pain,
a prairie of grace,
an angels lament.
JamieBlaze
It might sound gloomy but It has my heart:)
NaNoWriMo Song
To the Flinstons rime
For all of the warriors still fighting the good fight... Hear your cry of War and Advanced upon your foe.
Clap, clap, clap.
The sound get on your mind,
It's the NaNo sound.
Clap, clap,clap,
Writing your way.
Your muse keeps running away,
your life keeps draining today.
Tomorrows 1k is just on the way.
Clap, clap, clap,
your keyboard is asleep.
Raine, sun or Insomnia night,
the sound gets in your mind.
You should be NaNoing,
What is anyone gonna think?
Plot,plot,plot,
is eating your brain.
Clap, clap, clap,
The sound of your keyboard follows you around.
It's the NaNo deadline chasing out your mind.
The 50k you can just touch.
Clap, clap clap,
Don't you give up,
On November 30th we are gonna party around.
Kick our muses and do a Word count.
Clap, clap, clap.
NaNoWriMo 08 it's about to be done.
On December we edit and it all will be away:)
A rose is a rose but a rose.......
And was getting married.
A strange emotion filed me... I was happy.
I was truly happy for them. Even If my joy was tempered with a deep longing for myself that bears not thinking.
I am fool hearted I know.
I want love to triumph and I want happiness for all.
As I sit here crying into my keyboard, I know that it might not be possible and It is just a fools dream.
And yet I can but to hope.
Dear Mychael and Zathyn I wished you joy, happiness and the fulfilment of your dreams..may them come to you both.
Saturday, November 29
NaNoWriMo2008

Tuesday, October 28
NaNo is gonna kill me....
Everybody went to the coffee shop..again. For some reason I just don't like it there.
I'm soooo behind on my character development for NaNoWrimo its not even funny anymore:(
Lets not even get me started on a plot outline...cause I'm toast there.
I have exams starting next week for wich I haven't even started to study and I'm at my worst now.
I'm just so tired...all the time...
And all get is very cranky all the time:(
So sucky news from here.....
Scared of NaNo
The sea revolts, the sky wimpers for thatr beuty that left.
Maybe one day y'll come back,
to show us all that you still shine.
Tears wont come, sadness wont leave.
By the time you come back, there will be nothing left to see.
A piece of land, an emty shire.
All endless sky never and no more glow.
Sadness and tears washed all the happiness away...
Now we are just a memory of better days.
The sea wimpers and the sky revolts.
Please move on....our time is done.
JPB
Tuesday, October 21
YoW there???
You are killing me now!!
Stop eating my post::shakes fist::
You F****Blogger
I'll you shins,
Grumpy:(
Reason NOT to write
Thinking that the stars never shine like like now.
They are saying hello to you my dear.
On an endless sky with many stars,
a nice summer brizz and the fresh smell of summer.
You my love shine the most.
I remember nights when we would glow,
we only paid attention to our need.
.....Selfish lovers....
I saw you blossom like a summer rose,
Now I watch you go like a Nova Star.
Old memories embeded in the wood in me the starch reaches to far inside.
To late to see there is no tomorrow without your warmth.
Tuesday, September 23
Friday, September 19
Supernatural 4.1 My take:)
First I need to say I overdid it with the cooking wine and some margaritas so please no judging about my ranting!!
Ok so the little recap about Dean sucker punching ruby is so funny!!!
The hell part(his perspective) I mean...was a bit odd!!
Also Jensen needs eyedroppers(If that was him) in the eye hell thing:I

::raises hand::
Uhm.......How many people get buried with a lighter?
And after being dead can get their wits together to use it so fast!?!?
I love the boy but...Kriple I doubt you:S
I love the hands appearing in front of the cross ::gets chilly:: It was so very Buffy:)
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Ohhhh, looky that!!!!
A little alien circle like Cameron's!!! Or the weird one about baseball field:)
.....And oh my gosh there it is::waves cup:: The bow legged walk::slashy heart goes faster:)
Y-e-a-h-, uhm:.......That's not a happy hand(Dresden flashback)
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Oh, Bobby!!
You crack me up:).
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I'm with y'll the amulet transfer was way cuter that the manly man hug!
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The Ipod dock was funny:)
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Don't look much like a psychic...until the trio-invite there wasn't really much to see:)...
During the seance the hand holding...was sooo over shadow by Sam's bitchy face he he....
C-a-s-t-i-e-l-...Mwahahahha the tv....
Ok, poor psychick! you can allmost smell the charring flesh(are eyeballs flesh??)
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Yeah, whats up with Ruby!?!?!?!?
That actress need to go back to lifetime/Hallmark channel she crawled out...Talk about no expresion::coughbimbocough::
Sweet, it's the Sam fest.......again........and...again.
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Do I see a new slash pair ??
Can you say it with me?
Castiel and Dean sitting in a tree....::sings of key::
Ok I just got why some people jump to Beelzebub::freaky stare Cast::
Ohhh, and the dark wings don't exactly inspire that much confidence!! What with the dark and the lightning and the creepy stare::mindfuck much?::
OMG!! The confuse Castiel face::wobbly lip:: So cute!!!
What the heck does it mean that Dean couldn't understand Castiel other voice...that's bad??
"God commanded it" I started thinking about the song? You must have been a Dance Commander::yes, no more margaritas for me::
Their wobbly faces (Dean and Castiel) so much potential.
Also Castiel would so like to show Dean some prayers ::coughonhiskneescough:::)
Monday, September 15
I suck
Today I had German class(I had missed the last two)
And guess what??
I get to the train station and..........Black spots..
..I was in line to the my ticket and couldn't breath....there was this kid in front of me (6 or 7) and he couldn't find all his coins(and was taking sooooo long to do it) and I felt cold chills on my back...And suddenly I'm grabbing the side wall (sounding like an asthmatic kid)
So I left the line(slowly) and luckily there is this park just next to the station so I collapse on the first back I found!!
I popped like half a tablet of sugar pills(gross) and drank my bottle of juice...and just rested my eyes(for about an hour and a half)...
Then this gut came and started smoking pot two banks down and pouting this weird music while he yelled at his woman....So I bolted (like a snail) but I left.
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Saturday, September 6
Moms B-day
Very yummy...it was one of those places were you serve yourself?
Very nice food..we went with a bunch of her workmates.
Her boss was there( he got in early with his girlfriend) and I came next with a friend(who oddly enough is just a friend) and we had to make small talk for about one hour(yeah not so fun).
really they came from work and we from class. It was really cold!!!
My mom (as allways got in very late) with 2 teammates and they had made a sale so it was all good.
It was a bit awkward for a while but like I said the food was good!
You know in spite of the fact that I'm way chubby now, I'm not a big eater my migraine pill and allergies pill make me groggy and usually I eat when my blood sugar gets way low...
They sang Happy B-day and gave my mom a little cake to take home!
To the stars
Well to be fair I don't watch the show anymore...So while the cancel sucks for my avid friend to me its a bit meh.
What I do like about SGA is the fandom!!!
Way yummie:)
Its all about the McShep:)
The movie plans sound nice but it could end up being a mayor blowout. The buzz around is that not many fans are happy about it!!
Tuesday, September 2
Uhr
Haven't forgotten!!!
Just college ate my will to live and my willpower!!
I pass all my classes from last year and I'm currently struggling now.(gosh do I hate Ecom.)
Pets are OK!!!
No more hospital visits:)
Tuesday, July 1
sucks
I did the finals, they finished about 5 days ago I still can't remember what I wrote on them.....so not very happy about it.
I decided that I needed to catch up with my reading:: my sexy smut readind:: and started with a Rhodes books, the sequel of True of hearts, known as the Lords of Kellnerborne (probably misspell right now cause my teacher hates pda in class)
So its very boring network administration, its a drag there is only four people and the teacher block all the pc with some program.....
Friday, June 20
Friday, June 6
Cravings
One week without updates::cringes::
Sadly I was out with the flue and now I have enough homework to hang myself::wails at the injustice::
Yesterday I tried to go to my Port class only to find that H-E-L-L-O there was no class...
And yeah I was sick but someone could have warned me::big meanies::
Totaly skip out on a ONU for the kiddies meating::hey I was back home before 3pm no way I was gonna stay for over 5 hours prancing around::
Not a very good week:(
Will update later some post that I did on word::my mother took out my internet 'so I could rest this week'
Wednesday, May 28
OMG!?!?!?!?
One of my Hamsters escaped::this morning:: I wasn't here so I just found out.
Anyway like I said before I was having dinner :: so so:: so I placed the tray beside me....And got back to answering mails on the PC.
Next thing I know, I hear my mother scream.
I turn around and the 'cheeky bugger' is sitting on my dinner plate scarfing down rice like the white stuff was running away...and he eat my dessert::wtf::
Blasted animal!!!!
Yuckies
Just had some ::so so:: food.
And currently I'm trying to add some search boxes here::no luck::
I think I'm gonna ask for help on Friday when we code Ubuntu 8.04.
Really sleepy now..
I send my review of 'Graphics Instants' but forgot to add my personal reason for the score that I gave the book.............So I'm working on it again:(
rainbow-reviews.com you are killin me:)
Back o the Coal Mines
Tuesday, May 27
And so On
I didn't finish 'Kingsley and I' yet::cringes I'm on page 16::
And haven't touched Portuguese.....
I did just re read the full series of Jen-in-japan Music of the Spheres::on livejournal:: A wonderful Batman/Superman story:)
Off to bed
Grrrrrrrrr. Purple
I really tired and I have still to review Kingsley and I and its like over 200 pages...
Today ::In about 12 hours:: I most likely (I missed last week classes) have a Portuguese exam and I don't know my irregular verbs ::whimpers::
Plus I have Administration of Nets and its soo boring ::4.30 hours:: that I usually end reading some novel. Later working on the book alone and miserable...
I have been listening to Laura Favian ::Adagio, I will love again::
Put me in a funky mood:(
Monday, May 26
Ack!
German is way complicated ::looks panicky::
For me it sounds like they speak to fast::not true:: but I feel like I need a minute after each Fraze to channel the words...
Anyway now I don't feel so guilty for not working on the Tangram::the book:: while my teacher is in the Hospital.
Tomorrow is a heavy day....::huffs::
Review m/m
Just finish reviewing 'Graphic intentions' by Patricia Oshier Bruening. A nice story about two men with a darker past and new beginning. Placed in a Hollywood background.
Scott Delaney graphic novel writer with a shady past and ex- Army Derek Reinhart consultant for Hollywood movies, a 'simple man' haunted by night terror and terrible scars.
Review this story for the site Rainbow Reviews.
Still have Kingsley and I by Gary Martine to go........
Brezzing True
And because I beginning again...I feel like sharing...
The sea is dark,the night is cold.
Your skin I feel on a breeze.
I pray to the sky to have you back.
The night is cold, the sea so dark.
Oh a sweet memory of a lover tale.
The perfume of your skin on a breeze.
I once felt a sweet sorrow,
cruel faith by a lover I once knew,
An Angel I once loved.
The night is cold, the sea so black.
Now to darkness I return embrace like a blanket.
Heat,
Oh heat, cuddle like a child.
The see is so cold, the night so dark.
My sorrows are buried deep,
fueled by the memories of you.
Me
Veggin'
And catched up on sleep.
Also had some yummy dark pudding::I usually hate pudding::
And watched the movie War::with yakusso and the Triad, plus the dirty cops..nice moves:: it was nice.
Saturday, May 24
Busy busy little Bee
On Friday's I have a philosophy class::its 4.30 hours long::
Then I have introduction to Latin American States course::which is a very confusing shouting match::for about 2 hours if you finish the work you can leave:)
And last but not least the best part.......I have Unix based systems::very nice:: for 4 hours!!
This Friday we worked on Ubuntu 7.10, all about the graphs and the grub. And we installed Knoppix::can't remember the version...Knoppix is very user friendly and seemed very cool. Had some trouble with the drivers, but it worked well.
Tried to code the Aero feature on Ubuntu 7.10 and got the funkiest errors ever but I did it on my own.(teacher kindly pointed out that if we breaked the machines there was no problem.....they are refurbish from the Repair Course down the hall:) So they can fix it..
Later on about today...
Thursday, May 22
Me vs. Pc
Just finish reviewing Stocking Stuffers by Jamie Hill.
I'm now fighting with my computer to uploaded to the web.
Very charming story:)
Not going to the theater today ::next week cause its cold today::
Have about 600 pages from sociology to read.....for tomorrow::yuck::
Figaro la, la
My teacher is really funny and makes us sing all this ::for us:: silly songs.
Today was all about Joao Gilberto 'bossa nova' the lyrics from Chega de Saudade, which is the name of the first album of the singer.
In other works picture a group of people range from 18 to 64 years old bogging it up to Gilberto e Vinicios ::hilarious::
Now I'm writing a review for Rainbow Reviews...
Stay tuned:)
Wednesday, May 21
Animal Planet
Here you can see what type of pets I have...a.k.a. never trust a distracted PetShop worker when they talk about

well, let me tell you a story...
You buy one, it scape's. You find him and take him to see the vet::you know just in case:: The nice lady at the front tell you that if you had more than one, they stay calm.
So you go home with 2 females::lies::
Blah, blah, blah
one gets huge and mean
blah, blah, blah
called the vet
blah, blah, blah
mother screams when she finds 13 little wiggly things on the little house the big one is
blah, blah, blah,
rushes to the vet with the house and finds 'ding ding'13 new pets::insanely cute::
Plus my lovely dog::which we brought here:: (can't link a pic now)
Me:)
I'm Jamie P. Blaze and this is about ME.
I'm -- years old::winks::
I moved to SouthAmerica for college after a family 'tragedy'.
And I've been here the last 4 years::give or take::I have been fairly lucky and been able to see a lot of places:)
I'm a bit neurotic, I'm deadly afraid of bugs::who for some reason like me::, have 16 pets ::well get to that in a bit:: suffer from insomnia.
And if I have to be truthfully I still don't get ::after 4 years:: half the jokes in Spanish!
I live with my mom and 'sometimes' absent sister...We live in a flat in Baires....Stay tune for more:)